Friends who are there FOR you and WITH you during the nitty gritty times in life, I fux with that.

I broke in tears while having a conversation with my bf today, but it was out of relief. It’s been a LONG while since I have cried, in fact, the last time I did was over similar reasons earlier this year. I’m forever grateful for him to help comprehend what I am feeling and reflect on the importance of my own happiness.

I’m so glad neither my bf or anyone I know irl are still active on here to read the sappy feels I’ve been having recently lol. Honestly, it’s exhausting.

Some nights don’t go well, others, such as tonight, are great. At this moment in life, I’m happy. To those that shared the memory, thank you.

It’s been 2 years and 3 months since I last wrote; damn, life really took me through one hell of a detour. To those who still lurk the digital realms, hello - I hope you all are doing well. I write, not to give a crash course of what has happened since then, but to what is currently gnawing at my mind.
I find myself in a bubble of nostalgia which led to re-downloading the app and to no surprise, many have strayed. Initially, I joined Tumblr because I was a gay liddo boy who was heartbroken and had to bleed my heart out through text and music, ugh teenage angst is overrated. I’ve transgressed since then and cocooned into a happier person (ugh, happiness is overrated too) and I owe it all to my great bf and small group of great friends who hold it down for me. Although, a part of me calls for that sadness again (I’m not a masochist, I swear). The way I see it, there is something beautiful from coming out of a stage of heartbreak and loneliness. The pleasures of touch, enticing discoveries of another, and yearn for each other’s company - a friend would call me out on such Pisces thoughts. I think all the gay dramas and sad music are finally catching up to me.

Till next time. Who knows if I’ll revisit.